Self-Indulgence

SELF-INDULGENCE...
I'm very indulgence myself today.
how come it will be like that? I also dunno.
Emm...how to say I'm indulgence today??
let see...

Morning in the day,didn't take breakfast.
   will gastric and it's unhealthy to my body...
       indulgence...

Reach school. assembly, keep talking with friends!
    shock xDxD. but the rule is, can't talking when assembly.
    moreover, I'm a prefect ==''
       indulgence...

Stay in class, but dreaming whole day.
    waste my time today. do nothing!
    busy for carnival... can't get hard for academic.
      indulgence...

Bully someone. sorry about that.
    I'm not purposely but can't control myself.
    I told you I'm crazy today, right?? sorry =[
       indulgence...
     
Most serious was...
     I keep swear today...(foul language)
     OMG!! I can't forgive myself!!
     why? never do that randomly next time!!
Indulgence!!

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I must tell the truth.. i'm a straight person, dislike others slander or cuss behind me.

what you dislike about me, speak up!!

don't like that feel!! when knew a thing through a situation of  "uncareful"!!

I'm willing to sacrifice and disburse my time, to help you guys when you need me.

but the most i hope is.... honest and a truth heart.

saw they have a shock night, i hope I will be too. but i won't request by myself.. 

I'm not a cheeky person. everyone have right to know more friends.

I can't seize their friends and time.

I can't force them care about me... it's up to yourself.

depend on your feel.

I hope would not be alone.

I do what I want.

I care who I care.

speak out what I'm feeling!!

dumbness in my house...everything become indifference. 

even my mom scold at me, dumbness.

try my best don't do that. 

and told myself... don't do that at school!!

why?

a lot of WHY in my mind.  today didn't go school for taking my report, the reason is LAZY, and I don't want to explain anymore. waiting for Monday, take preparation to get scold by discipline  teacher.

went to SQ's house tested the food and beverage for carnival. and a guys asked..."WHY did you guys need sign up for a blog??" I'm unconfident to speak out "because it's a place to let me shout out my voices and feel. let my friends know my feels through the blog." the respond of mine was... SPEECHLESS...

yesterday went jogged with 3Y. chatted a lot with KY. we knew more about each other. I'm so glad have a nice friend like her. more than that is, i hope our friendship wont be destroy easily. and, don't try to destroy us!! I love you, 4Y!! sprint toward!!

WHY does he do like that? it's brought a lot of problems to me. but I knew myself will get a right answer soon. and I will do that!! don't do something wrong when you know that will bring problems to others. don't do something wrong when you know It will damage or breaking others.

don't ask yourself WHY when you are miss something. should ask yourself, "did you do your best?", "did you cherish when it's close and near to you?". It's so often to a human. we knew what should we so but we never done it in the right timing. when lost or missed, the only thing that we said out is...REGRET. please, don't do that. CHERISH what did you have.

a lot of WHY in my mind...

I always ask myself..."WHY your friends will leave you?","WHY did you have two annoying brothers?","WHY you have to do somethings that you are dislike?","WHY don't my mom ask my brothers to do the hswork, WHY should be me?","WHY do I meet a lot of troubles??"...WHY WHY WHY

but now, i changed my mind. the only thing that I know is...
CHERISH them whoever they are. treat them with a truth heart.
don't blow off your family. when you'r in trouble, be the last one support you is...FAMILY.
don't blow off why you have to do a lot of annoyed things. cause It will make you growth no matter your mind or 'body'. get more experience in your life.
TROUBLES will let you become mature. and you will bring a lot of happiness to others.

last...
the sentence that I always said... ..SMILE =], It's go for you..

my 'mess' mind...

I don't know what I'm thinking about...

my mind was mess today.

not because of thinking about nonsense.

the problem is, i dunno what's in my mind also.

then how can I speak out my feel?

my mind was blank today, whole day blanked!!

told others because of tired.

how was the truth reason? myself dunno also.

no target, no direction, no clue.

can't do anything...

it just wasting my time.

mess!! mess! mess...

these days.

actually I want change the writing  language to Chinese. more convenience to type blog and speak out my feels. but, lazy...==''

these days have been enrich to me. went to jogging with 3Y for the sport day. my legs...like cacat....

think back to sport day... we lose... because something wrong of another team.
but I told myself, it's passed. =] congratulation to KRS!! Champion xDxD congratz to BOMBA too. =)

Saturday went to FRIM with 3Y and others 8 person. Canopy walkway close o.O''... disappointed. went to water fall again. crazy when we are playing and have fun with someone XD. KY, although you can't play with us, but I will acc you go there again =] then went to watch Green Lantern. not bad,worth to watch.

Sunday went to dance prac... my knee, stasis~ enjoy when learning steps. won't think others. you will focus on the steps...same with swimming. i like that!!

today knew my result and rank in class... regress.. but I will take hard in next time. SPM, you let me so stress!! although I know it's important, but I feel like powerless to study hard. don't have force to push me. sigh... the only thing is, put more effort on my academic. sprint forward!! GAMBATEH!! for your life.

friendship =]

before, i scared too. scared our friendship just will be short memories.
but now, i don't think so. if you cherish and maintain your friendship with a real heart, you will get the same too.
don't even think your friends will betray you, will dislike you.
try to accept them. you will learn some new =]


today went to jogging with 3Y again. OMGoshhhhh!! I'm weak!! 
however i will do my best on Friday. u guys too =)
love 3Y... maintain our friendship ya =D

SAME...

the problem I face it again... i dunno whether i want to give up or persist. every time feel upset about this!! when can I stop it? I don't want be a silly girl again. don't want be idiot again. before i'm fall into this matter, i have to wake up myself. tell myself never be that again. but, no matter what i do, i can't stop thinking about it. not like before think about something nonsense. think about a lots of blah blah blah!! sigh... i dunno what I'm talking about now... just felt annoying!! don't always make false appearance to me. don't make me avoid and dislike you. please, review and reflect how yourself made a fake impression to others. pls, stop that. it just will let others misunderstand and more vexed... seriously to face the problem. ask yourself what you really want, who you really care about.

you never try, you never know. that's what I saw and what I knew when face a problem.

the end of this holidays...

times flies quickly, today is the last day of this holidays (just for weekday).
Saturday and Sunday have to rest more.
this two week never rest properly.
but i felt happy because got sports in this holidays.

Monday (06062011)
went to jogging with 3 of them at DesaPark.
after that they came to my house have a brunch.
we ate our brunch with a ghost movie that KY took to us.
end of that day.

Tuesday (07062011)
went to FRIM that day. with KY.JY.CY.WX.WJ.
took bus and walk to there... hot and far -.-lll
but that was fun la~ going to play at the waterfall.

after that... went to watched movie...INSIDIOUS``
scared man~ it was a nice movie!!

Wednesday (08062011)
have a Badminton day with 3 of them and WX.
long time never play Badminton... my hand look like cacat already...
when tuition or have to use energy on somethings... pain and no power

Thursday (09062011)
went to swimming with KY.CY.CM.
fun... CY didn't change swim trunks and let caught by security xDxD
and we have some very powerful games...sure FUN!!
but the problem is... me and KY sudden became black more.
cause of  sun's UV... but i thought it's worth =]

Friday (10062011)
today, went to play badminton with them too...
we tried something new...use left hand to play...
challenge and fun =D
later want go to meeting for SWS day too.
tired...
that's all the day i spent for my holidays...

Sat and Sun has to rest.
do my hmwork.

anyway, I'm glad with you guys.
hope it doesn't be short memories and will be continue.
we left no more times to interaction.
I will cherish... hope you guys too. =]

time is too fast...

5days never upload my blog...
before, i can renew post everyday...now? has been lazy.
this week was a good chance and good timing to touch PC.
because my brother stay at my cousin's house xDxD

just now read my friend's blog, talk about our F5 life left 6 months.
so fast O.o"?? a lot of things haven't done.
this year have to face our exam--SPM too.
this year, quite busy and stress!!
I'm so stress when tuition without any relax and concentrate in my mind.

confused about what should I to continue after SPM.
college or work? which course I have to study on?
Arrk!!

another things that let me confused id...
I dunno who i care about...
A or B?
dun make me really avoid you!

I emphasize many times...
I'm a person really care about friendship.
I cares about my friends.
if you treat me with a fake heart, please!! get out from my life!
let me know you are hate, dislike and avoid me.
don't let me become a silly girl that trust you are good to me...

this holidays really feel appreciate have u guys =]
the detail will be upload in this few day...
stay turned =]

my days.

have a lot of  programme in this few days...

(27.05.2011)
Friday, have BBQ at my house, damn fun!! LovE you guys =]
  never like that before =]
(28.05.2011)
Saturday, have HSD day, although not feel good about my members,
  but it's pass =]
(29.05.2011)
Sunday, my last day of working. forget about it.
  cause can have a relax day after it =]
(30.05.2011)
Monday, going to have dinner with my cousin sis at Kay's Garden.
  delicious because the ingredient is...MEMORIES =]
(31.05.2011)
Tuesday, went to Genting with my cousin.
  she was back to England today(03.06.2011). take care =]
(01.06.2011)
Wednesday, morning went hill walking with him. first time only v both.
  after taht went to jogging with KY.JY.CY.
    after jogging went to 1U watch movie with 3 of them.-[PAUL]..funny xDxD
(02.06.2011)
Thursday, morning didn't go anywhere.
  went to meeting at night. SWS day =]
(03.06.2011)
Friday, today morning, he FFK me cause of tired. it's ok, knew you'r tired of work.
  so, just only jogging with 3 of them and WC. sorry KY, let you fell down =(
    after have a breakfast with him, went to MV with him.
      we both just like stroll in MV and TG.
(04.06.2011)
Saturday, tomorrow morning go to hill walking with 3 of them.
  wanna to watch sunrise, have too depart early =]
    going to BBQ with boon seng them.
and now, after typing this, gonna go to sleep.

wow!! really full of programme. a lot of appointment xDxD
but felt content =]
this whole week, have to thx to you guys. 
especially KY.JY.CY!! thank you accompany me in this holidays =]
thanks to him too...V =]