Tuesday, May 24, 2011

feels..


recently... my life such as nothing.
working. study. and quarrel with my family.

I feel very emotional recently..don't know why.
feel like nobody can feel me.

feel like I'm farther with my friends.
gathering, go out for celebrating, some update news...
nobody tell or inform.

sometimes, hope can find my soulmate in school.
but never happen.
i need someone.. need someone be my listener. 
really annoying!!

my brain can't stop thinking about some nonsense. 
think about my friends.
think about my family.
think about...

i hate myself  soft-hearted.
every time forgot about how u both treat me.
like rubbish!!

I don't hope can get any retaliation from them. 
just treat them loyalty.
but they seems like forget about me.

wanna to cry out, but no tears in my eyes.
painful...difficult too.

every time when i'm uploaded my blog, i hope u guys read.
not through my mouth to tell them...''my blog is uploaded.''
i hope some one really can find me, comfort me.
even just chat with me.
asking me, ''what happened to you?''
''everything fine?''

I miss you.
 YOU, no exist...

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

HER decision.

nothing special. just a photo took by GOLDfish xDxD

finally she keep her bed tidy.
if before, her bed from double bed became single bed.
because the goldfish put her clothes on the bed when her family finished folded. 
what a lazy girl!! put in to the cupboard also idle!

but, when she is finished cleaned her room, she felt very happy.
because has a double bed sleep xDxD
and felt comfortable. 
although not a new bed or new bed sheet, glad too =]

and the red + white colour's pillow made by herself too.
powerful right XP
actually what goldfish told on above all are nonsense.

the things she want to say is...
she decided don't be a silly girl again.
don't always find others that look likes don't like to bother you.
she knew herself was a girl that Important bonds of friendship.
so she decided to keep the friendship long with a full heart and don't sms them again.
unless they find her to chat =]

the detail maybe you guys won't understand. 
want know more??
ask the character xDxD

Sunday, May 15, 2011

money...$$

yesterday, the 1st day of work.
in Jusco became a promoter.
first day, dunno everything... did wrong a lot of things....

  • get in to work by customer entrance, actually get in by stuff entrance. 
  • going to get a promoter pass but the security said... where is your letter?!
  • after get in, let a group leader said... why didn't wear mask?! Fortunately a worker take some for me.
  • don't recognize anyone, stand at there carry a big casing to promote, like a silly girl!!
  • stand beside the chill room that storage cheese, butter & margarine and in front of me is storage ice-cream. the chill room beside me that I saw the temperature was...1.8`C-4 something. what the o.O!! shivering whole day although wearing a sweater!!
  • finally off my work and have to body check.security said...next time have to wear cap, if not have to wear a cap like use in bathroom!!

arrk!! first day can get a lot of trouble!!


Today, the second day. but I failed to work. why? listen to the story.


  • waiting  for my boss to get the apron and cap. after that, get in from stuff entrance.
  • give the letter to the security and he said...must have a chop from manager.
  • go and find manager, she asked :''what you promote? where is the injection card?" and i dunno what's the injection card, ask can speak in chinese? she said how come if you dunno english, then you promote to the malay customer in chinese??  i really scare!! 
  • and the manager ask what should you do when become a promoter? i said wearing apron, glove,cap and mask. she said :"aha,then?" i said be polite to the customer.
  • and the last problem is, manager said must have a injection card for promote food, if not can't give me the permission for promote in Jusco. she said try next week.
  • take out the IC just mention that the security return a wrong IC to me. WT!!
  • walk out from the stuff entrance and straight calling my dad to take me home.
  • called to the boss and told him I gonna back. He said :"har? want meh?"a lot and alot. apologize to me that he don't know Jusco have a lot of troubles. ask me to take injection and do next week. the last sentence said to me is...Sorry, ByeBye.  

I was scared today. really scared. I don't dare to face again for next week working.
wanna to give up but I know I gonna be strong!!
for the money... be strong la!!

my mom asking me why have to earn money because I'm facing my SPM.
I said need money, didn't have any pocket money from dad.
now, I'ma girl with the amount RM0.00 in the pocket.
I have to earn money for they coming on June, accompany them to play for the only 1 time.
even if don't talk about play, how many times i have to reject other person?
they called me go out for tea, the money for tea also is zero. then I said some rubbish excuse!!
sometimes go out for meeting and take dinner before that, also have to reject for the dinner cause of money.

tell me, how long time I have to face it again??
they said , when you have pocket money, don't overspend.
i didn't! my pocket money spend for school payment such like t-shirt, fees.
last time have RM40 also spend for a sudden decide for Sing K! no choice.

I told myself... You Gonna Be STRONG!!


别人笑我太疯癫, 我笑他人看不穿。
Others think i'm madness, I laugh others didn't see through

LOVE is everywhere... (12.5.2011)

LOVE is everywhere...
this is my title of the chinese exam today...
when i choosing this title, dunno why, i have a lot of feelings in my heart.

think about my family, friends, and my lover although i'm single now xDxD
a lot of memories and experience...


other side, i hope will be in a relationship..
but when u expect highly, the result is appear very slowly...
although i don't have any trouble or happened, but when u are down,
           u really hope some1 can became your listener and a shoulder for u...

i'm focus in my exam now, and i need money.
need money to life cause i don't have any pocket money. arrk!!
hope tomorrow interview successfully...
GAMBATEH!! 
(GAMBATEH doesn't means support, it means GOOD LUCK too)

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

sigh...

recently... Exam lo~
except exam, my religion's things.such as practise for dance and a lot of meeting.
sigh... busy. made a lot of  deceptive excuse to reject meeting.
this month's exam make me feel stress..
arrk!!

my brother, made me angry again!!
don't know when he awake from himself.
made me said somethings rude in front of my sister...F***!!
sigh... nothing I can do for him.
I never give up him, just he is give up-ing himself...

gonna earn alot of $$.
and expect the days coming... 
sometimes, no money no happy  o(x.x)o

have to tell u guys too...
I'm a girl that really care and treasure about my friends. 
Please, don't make me "abandon" you in my life.

Monday, May 09, 2011

new look =]


new look man (6.6)''
tried this b4, but not so conspicuous.

Yesterday go TS. 
Promise to support a dance competition that PoiLam involve of it.
but their team No.8, can't support >.<
sorry to u guys =(
help them to make up, just eye liner only la~

at the last, can't support them, they decided to Sing K o.O''
has to use money again... i'm bankrupt already!! 

i'm really glad to meet you guys.
hope to see u soon =]
______________________________

I love my friends.
even you are just my common friend.

when I will talking to you, that means I mind about you.

when I will always sms you, because we can't meet often.
and it's because I mind about you.

don't feel my enthusiastic was annoying. 
because I scared lost you, my friend.

In my mind you have a certain status, 
and I just will think how to make our friendship long.

because I mind about you. MY FRIENDS.