Self-Indulgence

SELF-INDULGENCE...
I'm very indulgence myself today.
how come it will be like that? I also dunno.
Emm...how to say I'm indulgence today??
let see...

Morning in the day,didn't take breakfast.
   will gastric and it's unhealthy to my body...
       indulgence...

Reach school. assembly, keep talking with friends!
    shock xDxD. but the rule is, can't talking when assembly.
    moreover, I'm a prefect ==''
       indulgence...

Stay in class, but dreaming whole day.
    waste my time today. do nothing!
    busy for carnival... can't get hard for academic.
      indulgence...

Bully someone. sorry about that.
    I'm not purposely but can't control myself.
    I told you I'm crazy today, right?? sorry =[
       indulgence...
     
Most serious was...
     I keep swear today...(foul language)
     OMG!! I can't forgive myself!!
     why? never do that randomly next time!!
Indulgence!!

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I must tell the truth.. i'm a straight person, dislike others slander or cuss behind me.

what you dislike about me, speak up!!

don't like that feel!! when knew a thing through a situation of  "uncareful"!!

I'm willing to sacrifice and disburse my time, to help you guys when you need me.

but the most i hope is.... honest and a truth heart.

saw they have a shock night, i hope I will be too. but i won't request by myself.. 

I'm not a cheeky person. everyone have right to know more friends.

I can't seize their friends and time.

I can't force them care about me... it's up to yourself.

depend on your feel.

I hope would not be alone.

I do what I want.

I care who I care.

speak out what I'm feeling!!

dumbness in my house...everything become indifference. 

even my mom scold at me, dumbness.

try my best don't do that. 

and told myself... don't do that at school!!

why?

a lot of WHY in my mind.  today didn't go school for taking my report, the reason is LAZY, and I don't want to explain anymore. waiting for Monday, take preparation to get scold by discipline  teacher.

went to SQ's house tested the food and beverage for carnival. and a guys asked..."WHY did you guys need sign up for a blog??" I'm unconfident to speak out "because it's a place to let me shout out my voices and feel. let my friends know my feels through the blog." the respond of mine was... SPEECHLESS...

yesterday went jogged with 3Y. chatted a lot with KY. we knew more about each other. I'm so glad have a nice friend like her. more than that is, i hope our friendship wont be destroy easily. and, don't try to destroy us!! I love you, 4Y!! sprint toward!!

WHY does he do like that? it's brought a lot of problems to me. but I knew myself will get a right answer soon. and I will do that!! don't do something wrong when you know that will bring problems to others. don't do something wrong when you know It will damage or breaking others.

don't ask yourself WHY when you are miss something. should ask yourself, "did you do your best?", "did you cherish when it's close and near to you?". It's so often to a human. we knew what should we so but we never done it in the right timing. when lost or missed, the only thing that we said out is...REGRET. please, don't do that. CHERISH what did you have.

a lot of WHY in my mind...

I always ask myself..."WHY your friends will leave you?","WHY did you have two annoying brothers?","WHY you have to do somethings that you are dislike?","WHY don't my mom ask my brothers to do the hswork, WHY should be me?","WHY do I meet a lot of troubles??"...WHY WHY WHY

but now, i changed my mind. the only thing that I know is...
CHERISH them whoever they are. treat them with a truth heart.
don't blow off your family. when you'r in trouble, be the last one support you is...FAMILY.
don't blow off why you have to do a lot of annoyed things. cause It will make you growth no matter your mind or 'body'. get more experience in your life.
TROUBLES will let you become mature. and you will bring a lot of happiness to others.

last...
the sentence that I always said... ..SMILE =], It's go for you..

my 'mess' mind...

I don't know what I'm thinking about...

my mind was mess today.

not because of thinking about nonsense.

the problem is, i dunno what's in my mind also.

then how can I speak out my feel?

my mind was blank today, whole day blanked!!

told others because of tired.

how was the truth reason? myself dunno also.

no target, no direction, no clue.

can't do anything...

it just wasting my time.

mess!! mess! mess...

these days.

actually I want change the writing  language to Chinese. more convenience to type blog and speak out my feels. but, lazy...==''

these days have been enrich to me. went to jogging with 3Y for the sport day. my legs...like cacat....

think back to sport day... we lose... because something wrong of another team.
but I told myself, it's passed. =] congratulation to KRS!! Champion xDxD congratz to BOMBA too. =)

Saturday went to FRIM with 3Y and others 8 person. Canopy walkway close o.O''... disappointed. went to water fall again. crazy when we are playing and have fun with someone XD. KY, although you can't play with us, but I will acc you go there again =] then went to watch Green Lantern. not bad,worth to watch.

Sunday went to dance prac... my knee, stasis~ enjoy when learning steps. won't think others. you will focus on the steps...same with swimming. i like that!!

today knew my result and rank in class... regress.. but I will take hard in next time. SPM, you let me so stress!! although I know it's important, but I feel like powerless to study hard. don't have force to push me. sigh... the only thing is, put more effort on my academic. sprint forward!! GAMBATEH!! for your life.